Today is a culmination of firsts for me. Having lost my husband one week before Christmas 2017, Thanksgiving marks the last holiday we spent together, making today the first Thanksgiving I’m spending without him. I could focus on my sadness. I could focus on my disappointment that I’m still in a rental home awaiting my home, damaged by the fire, to be finished. I could focus on the limitations I’m experiencing from this cast on my left arm following an elective surgery to correct damage from a childhood injury. I could focus on the host of other challenges and frustrations I’ve been experiencing since the loss of my husband…
But today is not a day for that. Today is a day for thankfulness.
And through my loss, sadness, loneliness, frustration, I have so much to be thankful for. The night I lost my husband, I could have lost so much more. My children. My own life.
God spared us. It was not our time. Our journey in this life is not over and we’re moving right along.
My daughter got engaged, moved into her own apartment, and started a master’s program. Get it girl!
My son worked a summer job for the first time and started high school in September. He attended his first high school homecoming and left with his first high school girlfriend. Oh boy!
And me…I started a graduate program that I’ve been putting off for the last few years. I inched along in a new novel I’m writing and scribbled some more writing ideas for future projects. Most interestingly, I’m embracing this new single life–a status that made me cringe in my 20’s and 30’s.
At 43, I’mready for this time in my life. Could be because of my understanding about God’s perfect timing. Or maybe because of the confidence I have that God has great things in store for me. Or perhaps, it’s because I heard about the freedom and satisfaction to be experienced in singleness.
I want that.
I’m so thankful to be in this time and space.
In all things, give thanks.
Happy Thanksgiving and welcome to the new platform of my virtual home.